This Guy
Ive been thinking a lot about him lately. I'll never understand why he did what he did. The grown up part of me is getting past it, and just hoping he's happy know. The little part of me is still hurt and sad over it, and hopes he's proud of me. I think thats pretty much how it's going to be.
One thing he once told me, is that I did what I believed was right, even if no one else agreed. I think I've spent all my life since he said that trying to live up to that. I'm glad he saw me for more and better than what I was. I hope I can see my students the same way, and that they will want to live up to my vision the way I want to live up to his, still.
I love you Trif, I'll never forget you. You made me want to be a teacher, I'm sorry I couldn't figure that out for sure when you were still around, and I'm sorry if I dissapointed you. I hope I make you proud, and I hope I do a tiny little bit for even one of my students as what you did for almost all of yours.
posted by Rachel at
7:09 PM
4 Comments:
I was thinking about him recently, too. :/
I think about him a lot too. your feelings about everything mirror mine.
I feel quite similarly as you (except about the wanting to be a teacher thing... I still don't know what I want.) For a while there (during my own particularly hard time in life) I was having dreams abotu Trif almost every night, kept asking him why he did what he did... the dreams have subsided, but I still get sad/ angry when I think about it.
Am I an idiot for know knowing who 'This Guy' is?
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